i was trying to recall when i started feeling like this....
I open my eye every morning hoping that the day will be "fine"
I'll be all well to carry out the days activity.
sometimes i really hope i can just sleep.....sleep....
and don't wake up anymore.
It's just too much pain.
maybe just too much for me to endure.
I don't know when will this end.
Smelly: "what u playing with that mickey?"
Me: " cuz i'm trying to ask him to bring me to disneyland tonight with his magical powers...."
Smelly: * weird look* (must be too stressed up)
----------------------At night------------------------
Ew sms: " why nv ans my call, i bought something for u"
Me sms: " wah....early santa ar? what?"
Ew : "something u like but i don't think u have?"
Me : "what?"
Ew: "winnie the pooh......"
Me: " i've alot wor, what makes u so sure?"
Ew: " i just arrived from LA disneyland......."
Me: *ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh* "can u lend me you money printing machine for a day??"
*frown*
PS: CAs is out!!!! Str As!!! My gals did very well too! Jia you gals................
I totally have no mood for books....
my body is weak and my mind wanders...
it's so unlike last sem that i can study like 15 hours in one shot.
That airport trip seem so different now. i wonder why. maybe.....maybe not.
i guess things do change.
Happy mugging ^(._.)^
As these while i thought i was on a roller coaster i hate the mask i am wearing now. One that masks all my emotions, feelings....thought. what u see may not be what it is now
driven into a dramatic life
It was only recently that i realised that i am not driven
not driven....
i'm driving....
i'm the driver...
" why is your life always like a drama?" i recalled hearing this comment numerous times.
How come am i hearing it again? I thought that drama was long over?
I swear i'm at the top of the ride now.... jus a a single plunge is all i need....
it's going to be bad i know. deep down i know.
In fact every night when the lights are off and the silence comes....
emotions sink and fear creeps.
I'm just werid....
Recently i realised i'm very scare of ppl that are duper nice to me ( in particular guys)
Not the gals whom i knew for long of course
Nice as frd is okay, afterall gals are meant to be treated gently and nicely....
but once i realised things are not right, in my definitions, i'll change my attitude totally.
Ya that's me.
My health is getting worst recently...
due to my irregular diet...
I ate this small portion of rice ytd (for ur info, i haven't had rice for more than a week)
and ended up being very very full, nausea and all that.... keep going to the ladies, efforts to throw up were in vain ( i swear i nv force myself to vomit but just that it felt so uncomfortable that i feel like vomiting but nothing came out though).
Those gross scenes in Saw4 make things worst.
Here i'm duper guilty for wasting one day ytd, instead of clearing all my questions.
I swear i'm going to get it done by tonight, even if it means no sleeeeepppp (before 2am i mean)
no sleep is a torture man.
CHERISH YOUR LIFE!!!!! ...if u get what i meant.
Yes....i'm going to watch my long awaited SAW4.....
i miss jigsaw...wahahaha
Happy mugging!!!
Exam is in 2 weeks, 13 days to be exact.... i'm trying hard to concentrate....though my mind always start wandering after a while.
Progress has been good so far, at least better than the past few sems, cuz i've more time for myself , no tuitions ( though it's going to start like very soon), no entertainments. wahahaha....that's what a boring life i'm leading now :( notes, books and notes again...oh ya, not forgetting those mindmaps....
Mindmapping conference is in this week, and i saw that hugggggggeeeeeeee.....world largest mindmap today....when i was walking and i wondering which idiot did that... i saw our adorable friend studying at those benches....
T: "can lend me your finance notes."
Me: *dug out from my bag* "na...."
T: "mindmap again? got others or not?"
Me: "no..."
T: "then in exam i don't even know the answer in which rooooooooof....."
Me: *puzzled*
T: "roooooooffffffffff, gen1 you know"
Me: " roots u mean?"
Me:"those are stems...." *faint*
PS: I'm looking forward to Christmas, the nice nice christmas decros, the pretty lightings, the christmas carols, my fav "last christamas", those christmas gatherings ....... and the presents in my "dirty" christmas sock.... wahahahaa
I'm into my 5th day of liquid diet. Getting used to it , but still constantly hungry.
Wound doesn't seem to heal, cuz it's still kind of bleeding. Maybe cuz i've been talking too much.
Hope things will be better next week :(
I spent my deepavali, "roasting" myself....opppsss....not so that i can celebrate with the hmmm...blacks.......wahahaha...
I can't rem when was the last time i spent time under the sun for that long....3 solid hours!!!!!
Well... it was time well spent...with the bitches at the beach......oh not bitching though....
I regretted not apply more sun block, so i'm like 2 shades darker now= money wasted :(
At night i meet this galfriend( shall not mention her name here), we started to chat about this particular topic, then she mention this particular name, which sound duper familar to me, then to my horror.....i found out something shocking, disgusting, annoying....WHATVER you can describe!!!! Whatever it is....this comfirm my assumption (or rather conclusion)
that GUYS= JERKS!
whatever it is. I'm a happy gal still, cuz i DON'T GIVE A DAMN.......now
Me: "is it very swollen?"
T: "it's like a bun struck inside, what do u think?"
Me: "Damn....."
T:"how come look like veg struck inside"
Me: "damn, that's is the stitches."
T:" wah...the dentist the skill not good...whenhe restring that time, must use like.... arrr.....
wahahahaha.....for once i thought she talking about some rackets....
non stop laughing....i think my face will be better than bun tml, thanks to T....only ya T= TONG
I was given 5 days MC
By right i can stay at home and shake leg for 5 days...
*dreaming*.....
Exam is in few weeks, i reckon i can't miss any lesson.
So here i'm...in school. alone. *weep* i can't talk anyway.
The numbness is beginning to subside, meaning...i'm starting to feel the pain.
when i tried eating the pain killer just now, every mouth i swallow= pain.
so conclusion, i'm a hungry and thristy gal now, eating and drinking is difficult.
But i've a nice homemade porridge now sitting in my bag, so later i can eat. Don't envy wor *grin*
This morning.
Woke up at 6am, rush down to NDC, but my surgeon was late....meanings more wild thoughts ran thru my mind while waiting.
Nevertheless, he's a nice nice surgeon.
Injections were duper PAINFUL, but i never cry...cuz BIG GALS DON"T CRY (though my nick last time, was cry babe) wahahaaha.....
Oh ya, i only did the right two teeth cuz the surgeon was worried that i may not be able to eat ( luckily too, cuz i can't imagine having 4 teeth out)
And i realised today that my wisdom teeth are quite well taken care of. quite clean wor....wahaha....thought a bit disgusting. Will upload pic soon. Hee
My face is now kind of swollen, have that cap help to tone it down a little.
After school ytd
Me: " i really hate this kind of feeling."
Lu: " what kind of feeling?"
Me:" the kind of feeling of having to come back to school on weekend, then when i walk out everywhere is so quiet. I hate it when i 've to rush for tuition after school, but now i don't have tuition, i also hate it. sometimes i just think i'm weird."
Lu: " i think u r just never contented".
That kept me pondering.....pondering....n pondering.....
Then i was suppose to study.
But i ended up.....
IN A SHOPPING SPREEE.....alone...
yes i shopped alone at orchard, doing everything that i like, from books, to skincare to clothes....
Till like 10pm, then headed home.
There goes my study plan :(
But a little retail therapy does wonders to liven my mood everytime.
I've finally gotten myself a new email.
Cuz my current email has like 2987239879283 mails in it and lots of junk
and so many UNKNOWNS on my Msn that i've lost count.
So sweeties, add me at
straw_berryprincess@hotmail.com
Cuz i don't think i'll be using the old contact anymore.
Much Love
This gonna be a long post, cuz i'm here to RANT!!!!
(hopefully can get some photos up too)
30 Oct 2007
Had a sudden migraine attack in school while doing my assignment. All these while i thought the condition was in control until that day. The pain was so bad that i left the group, rushed home and locked myself up in the room, refusing all calls. Though, i did woke up in the middle of the night but slept for more than 15 hours all the way to the next morning, waking up feeling weak.
That was Tuesday.
Then wednesday and thursday.
Nothing significant happened, just at i feel much better today (usually after an attack, i'll feel weak for like a week, though i nv show)
NOW
I'm in the midst of finishing my assignments.
This semster all assignments relatively easy as compared to last. Nevertheless, i'm still putting in my best efforts, the gals too, i believe. :)
Did i ever tell you i'm grateful to have u all in my group, though at times i do get some headaches, and you do get some yellings. But bottom line is, we are efficient and we know WE ARE THE BEST, isn't it?
But from these assignments, i also saw the ugliness in some people. Maybe that's how ppl will become under competition, after all.... the "fittest" survive. The inverted commas are there cuz i don't regard these means as "FIT". It is through proper means of winning that i will respect. Cuz to me they are just losers who can't use their BRAINS (if they do have, i guess it must be rusty) to think. i'm just so DAMN DISGUSTED!
NEXT WEEK
okay, i'm feeling panicky now. Cuz surgery is in 2 days time. And my only consolation is my Marche icecream on Sunday :) ....my little moral support to make sure that i remain a strong gal throughout the surgery. Big gals don't cry.
*singing....i'm a big big gal..in a big big world....its....* la la la
[[ The Princess ]]
Strawberry Princess
[[ The Wishlist ]]
New wand!
Living in a magical strawberryland
Berry Blossom Queen Day: 7th June
Besties: Blueberry Muffin, Raspberry Torte, Huckleberry Pie
Lockart's new spell book
Murder the potions master
New broom
Get into the school's strawberry team
fAdE aKa ShArLeNe
Caven the magician
Adam Khoo
Agnes
Samuel
Averil
Casse
Yvonne
Jas
Amy
Tiffani
Vicky
Elizabeth
Gwen
Naomi
Rachel
Tong
Yun
[[ Let the fairytales begin... ]]
i was trying to recall when i started feeling like this....
I open my eye every morning hoping that the day will be "fine"
I'll be all well to carry out the days activity.
sometimes i really hope i can just sleep.....sleep....
and don't wake up anymore.
It's just too much pain.
maybe just too much for me to endure.
I don't know when will this end.
Smelly: "what u playing with that mickey?"
Me: " cuz i'm trying to ask him to bring me to disneyland tonight with his magical powers...."
Smelly: * weird look* (must be too stressed up)
----------------------At night------------------------
Ew sms: " why nv ans my call, i bought something for u"
Me sms: " wah....early santa ar? what?"
Ew : "something u like but i don't think u have?"
Me : "what?"
Ew: "winnie the pooh......"
Me: " i've alot wor, what makes u so sure?"
Ew: " i just arrived from LA disneyland......."
Me: *ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh* "can u lend me you money printing machine for a day??"
*frown*
PS: CAs is out!!!! Str As!!! My gals did very well too! Jia you gals................
I totally have no mood for books....
my body is weak and my mind wanders...
it's so unlike last sem that i can study like 15 hours in one shot.
That airport trip seem so different now. i wonder why. maybe.....maybe not.
i guess things do change.
Happy mugging ^(._.)^
As these while i thought i was on a roller coaster i hate the mask i am wearing now. One that masks all my emotions, feelings....thought. what u see may not be what it is now
driven into a dramatic life
It was only recently that i realised that i am not driven
not driven....
i'm driving....
i'm the driver...
" why is your life always like a drama?" i recalled hearing this comment numerous times.
How come am i hearing it again? I thought that drama was long over?
I swear i'm at the top of the ride now.... jus a a single plunge is all i need....
it's going to be bad i know. deep down i know.
In fact every night when the lights are off and the silence comes....
emotions sink and fear creeps.
I'm just werid....
Recently i realised i'm very scare of ppl that are duper nice to me ( in particular guys)
Not the gals whom i knew for long of course
Nice as frd is okay, afterall gals are meant to be treated gently and nicely....
but once i realised things are not right, in my definitions, i'll change my attitude totally.
Ya that's me.
My health is getting worst recently...
due to my irregular diet...
I ate this small portion of rice ytd (for ur info, i haven't had rice for more than a week)
and ended up being very very full, nausea and all that.... keep going to the ladies, efforts to throw up were in vain ( i swear i nv force myself to vomit but just that it felt so uncomfortable that i feel like vomiting but nothing came out though).
Those gross scenes in Saw4 make things worst.
Here i'm duper guilty for wasting one day ytd, instead of clearing all my questions.
I swear i'm going to get it done by tonight, even if it means no sleeeeepppp (before 2am i mean)
no sleep is a torture man.
CHERISH YOUR LIFE!!!!! ...if u get what i meant.
Yes....i'm going to watch my long awaited SAW4.....
i miss jigsaw...wahahaha
Happy mugging!!!
Exam is in 2 weeks, 13 days to be exact.... i'm trying hard to concentrate....though my mind always start wandering after a while.
Progress has been good so far, at least better than the past few sems, cuz i've more time for myself , no tuitions ( though it's going to start like very soon), no entertainments. wahahaha....that's what a boring life i'm leading now :( notes, books and notes again...oh ya, not forgetting those mindmaps....
Mindmapping conference is in this week, and i saw that hugggggggeeeeeeee.....world largest mindmap today....when i was walking and i wondering which idiot did that... i saw our adorable friend studying at those benches....
T: "can lend me your finance notes."
Me: *dug out from my bag* "na...."
T: "mindmap again? got others or not?"
Me: "no..."
T: "then in exam i don't even know the answer in which rooooooooof....."
Me: *puzzled*
T: "roooooooffffffffff, gen1 you know"
Me: " roots u mean?"
Me:"those are stems...." *faint*
PS: I'm looking forward to Christmas, the nice nice christmas decros, the pretty lightings, the christmas carols, my fav "last christamas", those christmas gatherings ....... and the presents in my "dirty" christmas sock.... wahahahaa
I'm into my 5th day of liquid diet. Getting used to it , but still constantly hungry.
Wound doesn't seem to heal, cuz it's still kind of bleeding. Maybe cuz i've been talking too much.
Hope things will be better next week :(
I spent my deepavali, "roasting" myself....opppsss....not so that i can celebrate with the hmmm...blacks.......wahahaha...
I can't rem when was the last time i spent time under the sun for that long....3 solid hours!!!!!
Well... it was time well spent...with the bitches at the beach......oh not bitching though....
I regretted not apply more sun block, so i'm like 2 shades darker now= money wasted :(
At night i meet this galfriend( shall not mention her name here), we started to chat about this particular topic, then she mention this particular name, which sound duper familar to me, then to my horror.....i found out something shocking, disgusting, annoying....WHATVER you can describe!!!! Whatever it is....this comfirm my assumption (or rather conclusion)
that GUYS= JERKS!
whatever it is. I'm a happy gal still, cuz i DON'T GIVE A DAMN.......now
Me: "is it very swollen?"
T: "it's like a bun struck inside, what do u think?"
Me: "Damn....."
T:"how come look like veg struck inside"
Me: "damn, that's is the stitches."
T:" wah...the dentist the skill not good...whenhe restring that time, must use like.... arrr.....
wahahahaha.....for once i thought she talking about some rackets....
non stop laughing....i think my face will be better than bun tml, thanks to T....only ya T= TONG
I was given 5 days MC
By right i can stay at home and shake leg for 5 days...
*dreaming*.....
Exam is in few weeks, i reckon i can't miss any lesson.
So here i'm...in school. alone. *weep* i can't talk anyway.
The numbness is beginning to subside, meaning...i'm starting to feel the pain.
when i tried eating the pain killer just now, every mouth i swallow= pain.
so conclusion, i'm a hungry and thristy gal now, eating and drinking is difficult.
But i've a nice homemade porridge now sitting in my bag, so later i can eat. Don't envy wor *grin*
This morning.
Woke up at 6am, rush down to NDC, but my surgeon was late....meanings more wild thoughts ran thru my mind while waiting.
Nevertheless, he's a nice nice surgeon.
Injections were duper PAINFUL, but i never cry...cuz BIG GALS DON"T CRY (though my nick last time, was cry babe) wahahaaha.....
Oh ya, i only did the right two teeth cuz the surgeon was worried that i may not be able to eat ( luckily too, cuz i can't imagine having 4 teeth out)
And i realised today that my wisdom teeth are quite well taken care of. quite clean wor....wahaha....thought a bit disgusting. Will upload pic soon. Hee
My face is now kind of swollen, have that cap help to tone it down a little.
After school ytd
Me: " i really hate this kind of feeling."
Lu: " what kind of feeling?"
Me:" the kind of feeling of having to come back to school on weekend, then when i walk out everywhere is so quiet. I hate it when i 've to rush for tuition after school, but now i don't have tuition, i also hate it. sometimes i just think i'm weird."
Lu: " i think u r just never contented".
That kept me pondering.....pondering....n pondering.....
Then i was suppose to study.
But i ended up.....
IN A SHOPPING SPREEE.....alone...
yes i shopped alone at orchard, doing everything that i like, from books, to skincare to clothes....
Till like 10pm, then headed home.
There goes my study plan :(
But a little retail therapy does wonders to liven my mood everytime.
I've finally gotten myself a new email.
Cuz my current email has like 2987239879283 mails in it and lots of junk
and so many UNKNOWNS on my Msn that i've lost count.
So sweeties, add me at
straw_berryprincess@hotmail.com
Cuz i don't think i'll be using the old contact anymore.
Much Love
This gonna be a long post, cuz i'm here to RANT!!!!
(hopefully can get some photos up too)
30 Oct 2007
Had a sudden migraine attack in school while doing my assignment. All these while i thought the condition was in control until that day. The pain was so bad that i left the group, rushed home and locked myself up in the room, refusing all calls. Though, i did woke up in the middle of the night but slept for more than 15 hours all the way to the next morning, waking up feeling weak.
That was Tuesday.
Then wednesday and thursday.
Nothing significant happened, just at i feel much better today (usually after an attack, i'll feel weak for like a week, though i nv show)
NOW
I'm in the midst of finishing my assignments.
This semster all assignments relatively easy as compared to last. Nevertheless, i'm still putting in my best efforts, the gals too, i believe. :)
Did i ever tell you i'm grateful to have u all in my group, though at times i do get some headaches, and you do get some yellings. But bottom line is, we are efficient and we know WE ARE THE BEST, isn't it?
But from these assignments, i also saw the ugliness in some people. Maybe that's how ppl will become under competition, after all.... the "fittest" survive. The inverted commas are there cuz i don't regard these means as "FIT". It is through proper means of winning that i will respect. Cuz to me they are just losers who can't use their BRAINS (if they do have, i guess it must be rusty) to think. i'm just so DAMN DISGUSTED!
NEXT WEEK
okay, i'm feeling panicky now. Cuz surgery is in 2 days time. And my only consolation is my Marche icecream on Sunday :) ....my little moral support to make sure that i remain a strong gal throughout the surgery. Big gals don't cry.
*singing....i'm a big big gal..in a big big world....its....* la la la
